Its our anniversary!!

My dear boyfriend..

Thanks for accepting me just the way I am

I’m glad that I have you as my boyfriend, best friend and my brother,

You’re my everything..

We’ve been into many ups and downs,

But we’ve managed to get through with them,

We’ve had a lot of changes over the years,

But through those years,

We’ve grown closer together..

We may have some quarrels and misunderstandings,

But we managed to deal with it,

As the time passed by,

We grow and mature,

And made our love stronger..

It’s 8 years already and I’m still in love with you..

HAPPY 8TH ANNIVERSARY!!

I ♥ YOU SO MUCH

i love sweet c0uples!!!

sori guys..dah lama rasanya tak update blog nie kan..cuti 4 bulan memang tak sempat langsung nak jenguk blog..banyak lak aktiviti yang kena buat..

tetiba malam nie terasa perasaan "jiwang" lebih lak..nie semua angkara FACEBOOK yang telah bertukar rupa..semua status update akan naik kat tepi wall..tetiba terperasan da sepasang couple komen mengomen kat dorang punya wall..aku pun tertarik nak tengok wall dorang..bila bukak je wall tue rasa sangat sweet la dorang tue..saling komen mengomen kat wall masing-masing..miss u la..can't wait to meet you la..huhu..aku JELES..sangat la JELES..sebab dah taw bf aku tak akan post something yang romantik camtu kat wall aku..dia pemalu la kot..malu ke??ntah la..dah dia camtu aku terima je..i still love him no matter what..ceewahhhh..jiwang lak kan..

dah komfem-komfem bf aku takkan wat camtu tak salah kan kalau aku berangan sorang-sorang..hehe..gatal!!teringin rasanya nak tengok kat wall dia wish good morning & cakap i love you ke..mesti satu hari aku senyum sorang-sorang cam kerang busuk..hehe..

bf korang romantik tak??kalo romantik best la..mesti dia call korang setiap malam kan..semata-mata nak dengan suara korang sebelum tido..ouhhh..sweetnya..bf aku tak wat camtu pun..

ehh..nie bukan entry nk kutuk bf aku..dia baik sangat..walaupun dia tak buat semua tue, tapi aku tau dia sayang sangat kat aku..sebab dia ada cara dia sendiri..

so kepada sesapa yang da bf cam aku tak payah la nak kecik ati..tak payah susah-susah merajuk semata-mata nak suruh dia berubah..kalo korang sayang dia korang kena la terima dia seadanya..im sure u know him better than me..and i know my bf very well..there's always something that he does that makes me smile..

aku ada senarai yang aku nak sangat buat dengan bf aku..korang mesti ada gak kan..jom kita tengok ada tak benda yang sama korang dengan aku nak wat..

duduk kat tepi pantai sambil tengok matahari terbenam..

main salji sama-sama..impossible??so what??

pegi piknik kat pantai tak pun kat tasik..sangat romantik..

pegi Disneyland & main sama-sama..i luv Disneyland!!!

candle light dinner..

banyak lagi la..tak larat korang nak baca nanti..thanks for spending time with me..see u soon..luv ya..goodnite!!

That Should Be Me

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans
That you made with me
cause baby I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong,I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me

You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time
To have me replaced
But did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doing to me
You're taking him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working 'cause you know that
I need to know, should I fight for love or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart


That should be me holding your hand
That should be me the one making you laugh, 
That should be me
that should be me giving you flowers
That should be me
Talking for hours that should be me, that should be me
That should be me
Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
I'm never gonna let you go

when i look at u..

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the night’s so long
Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can’t find my way home anymore
That’s when I, I, I look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I’m not alone

When my world is falling apart
When there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can’t find my way home anymore
That’s when I, I, I look at you

You, appear, just like a dream to me
Just like cyledoscope colors that
Cover me
All I need
Every breath, that I breathe
Don't you know?
Your beautiful

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I cant find my way home anymore
Thats when I,
I I look at you
I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me..

when i look at you-miley cyrus


p/s : u appeared juz like a dream to me..

saya merajuk~

saya merajuk dekat awak..

awak asyik sibuk sampai takde masa untuk saya..

bila mood saya tak baik saya mula marah-marah dekat awak..

saya mula cari alasan nak marah..

macam-macam saya cakap..

saya kata saya dah tak nak ambik tau pasal awak..

awak kata awak pun tak nak..

saya merajuk & awak pun merajuk..

camne nie..@_@

saya ego..saya tak pujuk awak..

saya tak mintak maaf walaupun saya yang salah..

saya pura-pura tak ambik kisah pasal awak..

walaupun dalam sebenarnya saya rindu kat awak..

saya rindu nak dengar suara awak..

setiap hari saya tengok ym awak..

saya bukak facebook awak..

tapi saya tetap tak nak mintak maaf kat awak..

tapi awak pun ego sebab tak pujuk saya macam selalu..

satu hari saya terperasan status ym awak..

awak tulis awak eksiden..

saya rasa saya tak boleh pura-pura tak tau..

saya risau sangat..

kalau la kita dekat dah lama saya jumpa awak..

disebabkan status tue saya buang ego saya dan telefon awak..

awak cakap awak luka sikit je..

sempat lagi awak perli saya..

awak kata kat saya "kata dah tak nak ambik tau lagi"

tiba-tiba saya rasa macam tertipu je..

awak sengaja buat status macam tu sebab awak tau saya mesti akan telefon awak..

awak sempat lagi gelakkan saya..

memang tak patut betul..

saya pun dah tak jadi merajuk dengan awak..

pandai ye awak..

saya rasa sebab tu saya sayang sangat kat awak..

sebab awak memahami saya..

dan saya memahami awak jugak..

kita selalu macam nie..

tapi lepas kita gaduh kita akan jadi lebih rapat..

lepas gaduh bolehla saya manja-manja dengan awak..

saya sayang awak..

sampai bila-bila..

my nEw shAwL..

even wit my busyness and having a bad m0nday,i still have 2 update my bl0g..c0z i need 2 sh0w my bf my new shawl dat i b0ught yesterday..he has 2 see dis c0z he gave me d m0ney 2 buy all dis shawl..i really appreciate dat a l0t..thanks abg..thanks a l0t..l♥ve u s0 much..(^_^)

senyum x bpa ikhlas..

senyum ter'0ver'..hehe..

huh..muka ketat..

ska yg nie sbb wrna wrni..

nie cam kain serban..sbnrnya nk bli kaler len..tp abes lak..

l0ve all 0f dis shawl..but still d0nt kn0w when im g0ing 2 wear them..i juz l0ve 2 keep them as my c0llecti0n..

p/s : p0se nie suma sma sbb tngkap sndri..hehe..tme nie suma bz try shawl bru..pic nie hnya utk tatapan smata2..bkn utk tjuan jualan..harap maklum~

bAd dAy..(@_@)

its m0nday..like i always said, i hate m0nday..and again i had a bad day 0n m0nday..why it have 2 b me??lets start the st0ry..

pg yg indah..indah ke??smlm ingt nk td0 awl sket tp last2 lwat gak..nie gara2 my bf yg msg pas dia blk tgk b0la..mlayan dia msg smpai pkul 3..tp pg nie awl gak la bgn..siap smpat bncuh mil0 lg..

dsbbkn arini ari isnn,bjet nk g klas naik keta..sbb klas pdat..mlas nk naik bas..7.50 bru la trun..smpai je kt keta tgk2 tyar keta flat..adesss~time nie trasa nk sepak2 je keta tp nnt kki nie gak yg skit kn..s0 if i d0 dat, it 0nly cause me pain..s0 i decided t0 leave it..

jd trpaksa la brlari2 bapak nk g kt kwn2 yg stia mnanti dpn surau (kal0 brlari2 anak lmbt sgt)..el0k kt0rg smpai kt f0yer nk naik bas, tgk2 bas dh jln..trpksa naik bas yg kt blkg..

kt0rg dh la da kuiz mate pg nie..bas lak xkn jln slagi x pdat cm sardin..mnyampah btul..lps 20 mnit bru bas grak..bla smpai je klas, lectrer dh trcegat dpn klas..alamak..abis la..kt0rang lwn t0lak nk msuk..suma tkut..bla msuk je tr0s kna s0und "kn sy dh psan, naik bas pkul 7.30"..blum smpat kt0rg ckp pa2..dia kta lg "dh2..sy xnak dgr alasan kmu..ambk s0klan"..

tgk je s0klan mate 0tak dh blank..ttba rumus dlm kpala mnghilang satu prsatu..adehh..cmna nie..x smpat nk tarik nfas lg..msa tnggl 30 mnit..psni da klas lak..kt0rg wt gak yg trbaik..wlaupun byk yg tnggal..biar la..dsbbkn nk siapkn s0klan kuiz mate td, kt0rg dh lmbt 30 mnit utk next class..dh la da presentati0n..

pa la malang sgt nsib kt0rg nie..bla msuk je kna s0und.."len kli sy xkn bg awk msuk klas kal0 awk lwat lg"..bengang rsa..tp kt0rg wt dek je..dduk wt xtau..mls nk lyn lectrer brleter..bru je dduk tr0s kna pggl wt presentati0n..x smpat nk tarik nfas pn..

time present mcm2 la plak dr. nie tnya..kerek lak dia..gr0up yg sblm nie xda lak dia tnya byk s0klan..tp lga gak la, wlaupun klam kbut, presentati0n kt0rg brjln lncar..

arini smpat lunch dgn brger je..pnya la nk cpat..da lak kwn2 laki yg perli.."ai,k bf bg duit pun mkn brger je..nper x mkn nsik??"..hehe..sbnarnya kt0rg cdang nk mkn nsik pas klas..x klam kbut sgt..tp last2 aku mkn megi je mlm nie..xpala..asalkn prut knyang..

s0k nekad nk bgn awl..psal tyar keta tue, dh da abg sni0r yg sudi nk tlg tkarkn dgn tyar spare..nk hrapkn aku, k0mfem x trtukar..hehe..

p/s : i need 2 say s0rry t0 timah, fishah, zah & niena...sbb aku, k0rg lmbat & kelam kabut arini...huhu..

yeayyyy!!! JPA dh msuk...(^_^)V

bla tgk entri nie msti pelik kn..pa kaitan JPA dgn bdk upsi..sbb bdk upsi mmg x dpt biasiswa JPA..kt0rg juz dpt biasiswa KPM..tue p0n kal0 cmerlang la..hehe..

mggu nie da 0pen day KHAR..mmg byk sgt2 yg jual slendang..mmg rambang mta la sgt2..tgh wind0w sh0ping tringat lak nk msg my bf..

gf : bestnya abg..kt cni da 0pen day khar...byk sgt slendang cntik.tp syg xde duit..huhu..

bf : yeke..xpala..s0k kal0 duit jpa abg msuk, abg bank in kt syg k..

gf : yeke??thanks abg..

wktu tue ati dh brbunga..nk arap duit pt mmg k0mfem la lmbt..bengang rsa..dh la p0kai..lunch p0n dgn megi je..bgn pg tghri nie, da la msg dr yg trsyg..dgn mta yg sparuh trbkak, reply la msg yg tersayang..

                       bf : syg..duit abg dh msuk arini..

                  gf : yeke??bestnya..duit syg x msuk lg..

                  bf : syg x kuar ke arini??arini kn weekend..

                  gf : nk kuar pa..duit p0n xde..

                  bf : nnt bg n0 akaun syg kt abg..abg bank in duit k..

                  gf : btul ke nie??

                  bf : btul la..kn syg ckp nk bli slendang..ptg 0r mlm abg bank in k..

ttba je mta yg ngant0k trasa segar tr0s..bhgianya rsa..nsib la da bf yg prihatin..dsbbkn kemurahan ati dia, duit yg dpt td bley la gna wt bli slendang..

p/s : thanks a l0t abg..but u still 0we me 1 m0vie and lunch..hehe..l♥ve u s0 much...

i L♥ve y0u~

as we gr0w year by year t0gether,

as we c0ntinue t0 change with age,

there is 0ne thing that will never change,

i keep falling in l0ve with y0u..

i l0ve y0u,

n0t f0r what y0u are,

but f0r what i am when i am with y0u..

and i d0n't care what pe0ple say ab0ut y0u,

h0w bad y0u are, 

and h0w stupid i am f0r taking y0u back..

i kn0w what is best f0r me,

and i always kn0w what is best f0r us..

we were given tw0 hands t0 h0ld,

tw0 legs t0 walk,

tw0 eyes t0 see,

tw0 ears t0 listen,

but why 0nly 0ne heart??

because..

the 0ther was given t0 s0me0ne else,

f0r us t0 find..

and i..

i already f0und mine,

it is with y0u..

p/s : i l♥ve u..

05.01.2011

dear bl0ggies..

yesterday is my 2nd day 4 new smester..and as usual im late again..but dis tme im n0t al0ne..rite n0w im thinking, can i change dis bad habit..ermmm..its hard..but n0thing imp0ssible, rite?

but t0day it is bad than 1st and 2nd day..wanna kn0w y?let me tell u..last nite i can't sleep..r0llling 0n d bed f0r h0urs..but still can't sleep..and dats y i w0ke up late again and again and again..but dis time, very late..s0 i decided n0t 2 g0 2 class..its n0t on purp0se..n0 n0..it is 0n purp0se bc0z i c0ntinue 2 sleep..hehe..

what can i d0..im always like dis..having tr0uble 2 wake up early bc0z all my h0usemate still sleeping wit their warm blanket on..hugging pillows..and its hard 4 me 2 let my b0b0 g0..i feel safe hugging him..

dis is mr b0b0..isn't him ad0rable..
he's my present fr0m my Bf..
he b0ught b0b0 at australia..

but n0 w0rries..tm0r0w im sure im n0t late again..c0z my class start at 12..hehe..h0pe s0..

girLs Vs b0yS (pArt 1)

• A girl wh0 stays at h0me kn0ws much m0re than a guy wh0 is hanging 0ut m0st 0f the day!c0z girls l0ve g0ssip..

• Guys never n0tice differences in their friend's appearance unless the difference is t0o 0bvi0us (like a very p0or haircut). But with girls, it's n0t the case..Try walking t0 y0ur friend wh0 is a girl with a small stain 0n ur shirt which is usually unn0ticeable..u w0uld get caught within the first couple of minutes.

• 
  

  Guys try their best 2 b caring but they r n0t designed 4 that..Girls 0ften tend 2 care m0re than what u want them 2.. If u r d0wn with fever and u let ur best friend wh0 is a girl kn0w,u'll end up answering the phone at least 20 times that day..she called just 2 ask u b0ut ur health..

• 
  

  Alm0st every1 has s0me childishness in him/her..The fam0us qu0te "There is n0 p0int gr0wing up if u cann0t be a child at times" is an illustrati0n 0f that fact..H0wever, the pr0p0rti0n 0f girls 0bserved 2 be childish is much higher than guys..

• 
  

  Even the m0st silent girl is highly talkative within her gr0up..guys usually d0nt talk t0o much like girls..c0z they d0esn't like 2 share their pr0blem with 0thers..

20.10.2010

i sh0uldn't let u kn0w h0w hurt it is..

c0z im sure u d0nt want t0 kn0w h0w hard my life is..

s0metime i wish u w0uld feel what i feel..

s0 that u can carry half 0f my burden..

but i need t0 m0ve 0n..

t0 start a new life..

build a new mem0ry wth0ut u..

i have t0 step up..

and d0nt ever l0ok back...

i need s0me0ne t0 h0ld my hand..

t0 give me strength..

t0 give me l0ve..

t0 give me sh0ulder f0r me t0 cry 0n..

t0 b wit me n0 matter h0w hard it is..

i kn0w i can d0 it..

L0ve...

Find a guy wh0 calls y0u beautiful instead of h0t,

find a guy wh0 calls y0u back when y0u hang up 0n him,

wh0 will lie under the stars and listen t0 y0ur heartbeat,

0r will stay awake just to watch y0u sleep...

wait f0r the b0y wh0 wants t0 sh0w y0u 0ff t0 the w0rld when y0u are in sweats,

wh0 h0lds y0ur hand in fr0nt 0f his friends,

wh0 thinks y0u' re pretty with0ut put 0n ur makeup,

wh0 likes t0 watch y0u even when y0u just wake up...

One wh0 is c0nstantly reminding y0u 0f h0w much he cares

and h0w lucky he is to have YOU...

The 0ne wh0 turns to his friends and says, thats her...

the girl that t00k my heart away..

Thats him..

the 0ne that y0u sh0uld trust,

the 0ne that will keep y0u safe,

in his heart..

ciNtA??

          kdg2 kita ska 0rg 2..tp 0rg 2 x ska kta..da gak 0rg yg ska kta tp kta x ska 0rg 2..da 0rg ska kekasih 0rg lain..da kekasih 0rg plak ska kt kekasih 0rg lain..nper cm2 ye??pelik2..tp yg pstinya cinta utk yg Maha Esa lebih agung..xda cnta yg bley mnandingi suma 2..

          cinta 5 taun pn kal0 xda jd0h kta xleh nk wt pa..suma 2 ktentuan Allah..bru2 nie jmpa s0rg akak sni0r nie..sja b0rak2 dgn dia..dia ckp dia dh brtunang..bru je knal dh tunang..tnya gak dia cmna akak bley decide utk brtunang dgn laki 2 sdangkn akak bru je knal..dia ckp dia nmpk kesungguhan laki 2..ssh pyh bwk jmpa fmly..siap smpn duit lg utk d0rg pnya future..s0 akak nie pn brtunang la..pdhal sblum nie dia brcnta dgn 0rg lain..tp x mnjadi..mknanya kta x prlu ssh pyh nk brcnta lma2..kdg2 bla kta jmpa 0rg 2..kta bley rsa yg he's the right 0ne..

          org dlu2 brcnta lps kwen..sbb 2 prkhwinan d0rg brtahan lma..sbb lps kwen la kta nk knal ati budi psgn msing2..tp kta skang nie knal dlu bru kwen..lps kwen dh xtau dh nk tnya psl pa..sbb suma bnda psl dia kta dh tau..sbb 2 da yg gduh..sbb dh xda bhn nk ckp..knal dlu bru kwen da gak bgusnya..at least kta x slh plih 0rg..tkut gak trkwen dgn laki yg pns baran..asyk nk pkul je..suma nie da baik bruknya..

          cnta nie pelik..kta x prlukan sbb utk jtuh cnta..dan msa bkn 1 pngukur thap cnta kta kt sese0rang 2..kta sndri x bley tnjuk sbyk mna cnta kta kt sese0rang 2..kta xkn pnah phm pa erti cnta..kta xprlukn msa yg lma utk jtuh cnta..da byk jnis cnta..

• cnta m0nyet..
• cnta buta..
• cnta 3 segi..

• cnta sjati..                                                          
• cnta pndang prtma..
• cinta gila..
• cinta kt kwn..
• cinta kt family..
• cinta kerjaya..
• cinta plg agung..CINTA PADA YG MAHA ESA

         

       i used 2 fall in l0ve..my 1st l0ve is when im in high sch0ol..0rg kta cnta kt sk0lah cnta m0nyet..tp m0nyet2 pn brtahan gak la smpai 6 taun..tp jd0h x pnjang kn..he met sme1 better than me..i let him go bc0z "if u l0ve s0meb0dy, u have 2 let him g0..if he c0mes back, then he is y0urs..but if he didnt, maybe b0th 0f u are n0t meant 2 b t0gether"..dats my priciple..s0 i let him g0..as l0ng as he is happy, i am happy t0o..byk knangan slama 6 taun..ssh snang sma2..tp kal0 dia lbih bhgia dgn 0rg lain, i will b happy 4 him..cnta x bley dpksa..

          he is happy n0w wit her sweet, caring and beautiful gf..i kn0w she c0uld take a g0od care of him very well..i h0pe they're b0th happy..

          thanks t0 my family, emak, kakak, abg2..kak niza, kak lisa and my niece t0o wh0 always supp0rt me and give me l0ve when i need it..thanks t0 my bestfriend ilah, pipah, azie, amzar, n, ema, ain, timah, fishah, niena, sarah, zah & all my friend wh0 always b with me when i need them..thanks 2 my sis kak nur, kak yuyu, kak wa, kak sue n kak bie..thanks 2 my x-bf f0r giving me the sweet time t0gether and share ur l0ve wit me..and special thanks t0 sme0ne special in my life..wh0 always b there 4 me and give me advice..mr r0han wesley @ bubby..l0ve u all guys..im str0ng bc0z i have all 0f u beside me..im n0t l0nely bc0z i g0t all the l0ve dat i need..and im happy bc0z i d0nt want 2 make u all worry..^_^

st0ry b0ut mArriAge..

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!